Reflection essay

Three years ago I was living the single life. I had no one else to worry about but myself. I was able to come and go as I pleased without having to think twice about it. I thought my life was perfect. I knew from the beginning I didn’t want any kids. I felt as if having kids would slow me down. I wouldn’t be able to take trips out of town or hang out with my friends at will. At that point in my life kids only meant that I would be adding another bill and responsibility to myself. Paying daycare fees alone terrified me. Not to mention buying diapers, baby wipes, baby food, doctor visits, and the list just goes on and on. I just figured I would grow old without having any offspring. The birth of my daughter three years ago changed everything.
I was six weeks along when I found out I was pregnant. Needless to say, I was mortified. But at the same time I was delighted. I had mixed emotions. These back and forth feelings went on for about three months which was my first trimester. During my second trimester I became very depressed. Every day felt as miserable as the day before. I would wake up hoping that I was in a dream. Once reality set in and I realized it wasn’t a dream, that’s when the poignant feelings returned. I would always sit back and reflect on my life before I was pregnant and that made me feel even worse. After a while I figured if I didn’t mull over my life before my pregnancy I wouldn’t feel so gloomy. Of course that didn’t work. Those feelings didn’t disappear until the day that I gave birth.
January 9, 2010 I gave birth to a healthy, beautiful baby girl. After giving birth I felt an enormous amount of relief. I no longer felt depressed. All of the discouraging feelings that I felt before went away as soon as I held my daughter in my arms. She had huge brown eyes that were so lovely. I couldn’t believe that I was able to create someone so remarkable and inspiring. I knew at that moment all I wanted was to do everything in my power to make sure that...