A Daughter's Apology

Mom and dad,
I am so sorry for the pain, embarrassment and worry I have put you through I know I have made you guys upset and has been difficult for you all. All this misery was caused because of my selfish and unreasonable behavior. I can’t explain nor justify actions, I have no one to blame but myself and to be honest I still don’t know why I chose the path I did and made that thoughtless action. I know I can never take back what I have done, as much as I want so badly to do. You’ve stuck by me, love me unconditionally, marched on hot coals in fear of ever losing me. You are the only ones that have truly cared for me, supplied for my needs and honestly want what’s best for me. And every time I try to change, I throw it back at your faces. I’m sorry am not the perfect daughter that gets straight A’s or is clean and organized either but I do try hard to do my best everyday. I want to be the daughter you’re proud of. But then I don’t think things through, I just don’t think and then it all goes wrong. I never thought of the consequence or the hurt and ache you would’ve felt. As a result of my foolish actions I have brought disappointment and shame on you both. I can’t ever take back the nasty and unimaginable things i do/done, no matter how hard i try to block it out and move on, it’s never going to go away and i can’t take in how teenager like myself can make such a mess of my life in such a short space of time. When I stole I cried, I cried so hard, slapping myself because i couldn’t believe i did such a thing. I cried because i have tried so hard to change and there i go and ruin it all as usual. I cried because i realized i bring nothing but deception to you and in my heart i know i am a good person, I do have good intentions mom and dad I just get caught up in my foolishness without thinking clearly. i love YOU so greatly, with all my heart and soul, more than anything in this world and it hurts so bad when i cant show you that love because i don’t know how...