A Time When I Felt Frightened

That moment in time when I came to realize who I truly was and who God had created me to be, forever defined me as a person.   It made me reflect on my life experiences with a humble heart, looking for wisdom and understanding.   In that instant I looked at myself through new eyes, seeing my life’s purpose more clearly.   I was exhausted, but rejuvenated.   I was a mother.   It was a blessed day.   I had a grueling labor but it was over.   Everyone was safe, healthy and happy.   It was truly an unforgettable moment to remember.
Very early on a Saturday morning, as I lie in bed trying to get comfortable, suddenly I heard a small ‘pop’.   I did not know what that sound meant, until I felt the warm drizzle of fluid beneath me, soaking my bed.   I shook my husband as I heard myself say the old phrase, “honey, it’s time!”   Unlike in the movies there was no panic or confusion, there was only the urgency a great moment filled with excitement.   This was our first child, the tangible manifestation of all of our hopes, dreams, and our vision for the future.   We got to the hospital and in the beginning time unfolded in slow motion like a waltz.   However, when the baby was ready to be born the real labor pains began and it was a ‘whole different ball game’!
The labor was brief, but painful and exhausting.   Our baby was everything that we had hoped for and much, much more.   Later that evening, after I had rested a little, the nurses brought that little bundle out to me, and laid him on my chest.   I examined him over and over again, looking for I really don’t know what.   My eyes could not get enough.   Right then and there it struck me, I knew exactly who I was and what I had been chosen and sent to do.   This was my child, and I was his everything.   There was no room for doubt or confusion.   I had been blessed with the opportunity to love, nurture, cherish and guide this little person.   I felt the enormity of the task, but I was not afraid, I was honored.   In that moment everything was...