I Only Need What I Want

i am tired of thinking all day long,thinking about what i want and what i need.Maybe i am just afraid of the future,afraid of the unknown world.2012 is nearer and nearer,what if it is the end of the world?what if all of us have to face death at the excactly same time and there is no use begging for an exception.what if _what if_

i am a person who believe in destiny,some of the people are born to be together and to be close friends.That's destiny.But it is not the order of God,but it is the character joins them together.Destiny is not something unchangeable ,it is all depends on your soul and heart,depends on what you do,what you want and what you need.

i was always trying to find some peace in my heart,but failed.i know sometimes i want too much,more than i need and   worry too much,more than my mind can bear.Sometimes i feel that it is heaven on earth,when i enjoy myself reading my favourite novel quietly in the classroom ,bathing in the sunlight,my soul is as pure as a baby's.But when i watch the hustle and bustle of the city,i feel nothing but fear.i am afraid of racing,afraid of competing,afraid of losing all my joys and quietness.Sometimes i just miss some one soooo muchthat   i can't help myself crying.i keep asking myself why i am so cruel to myself.why i give all my love to someone who doesn't care!Maybe i want too much,more than i need.

Now i am trying to give it my best shot,to overcome the loneliness in my heart,and to find some peace of my soul.What i should do is just to accept what i can't change in my life .What i must keep in mind is i want only what i need.But it doesn't mean that i have no dream,i do have my dream,and i will protect is as it is a baby under my belly.haha.