Hi There

Hi there Depression, OCD and Anxiety. Why am I not surprised to see you? As we come upon this holiday season I know you will come back into my life and remind me of everything I don't have, and you will make me forget everything that I do. I bet that you all think it's hysterical and entertaining that I have no idea which one of you is haunting me. You laugh at my tears of pain, anxiety, confusion, and my low sense of self-worth. You make me feel stupid because I’m too anxious to get my Christmas shopping done. You make me feel weak because I can’t handle a single holiday party. You make me feel like I’m unlovable because I've been let down by a few people in my life. You don't let me see myself for the beautiful girl I am inside and out because I have a few curves and plenty of stretch marks. Are you having fun now that you've set up your home in my head permanently for the last three years? Are you satisfied that I no longer know which one of you is torturing me every day? Are you having fun watching me suffer with one ineffective medication after another? Are you content knowing I spent five weeks locked away thanks to your untruthful words? Thanks to the three of you, I no longer remember life without your abusive ways. I don’t know who I am without you in my life. I don’t know why you do what you do to me. I don’t know what I did to deserve this pain, anxiety and fear day in day out. My life, in every single aspect, has been formed by your presence within me. I have no doubt that you will be lurking within me all the days of my life. I'm not sure how I feel about that right now. Maybe if I learn to live with you and accept your abuse, you will exhaust yourselves and give me a break every now and again.

Talk soon